Beware of my machine guns!

stephanie

alreadyEIGHTEEN ):
o7.o9.1992
Chong Shan Primary
Townsville Primary
Holy Innocents' High
Temasek Poly - AS

Veterinary Technology-A9K1


If you ever see a unicorn, let me know pretty please.

"I need to feel appreciated, that I'm not hated. Oh no.
Why can't you see me through his eyes?
It's too bad you're making me decide."

"I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
'Til all my sleeves are stained red

...

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away"

The recent rains had dampened the wild flowers in the fields and they now looked battered and bedraggled.
I stopped in the middle of a forest of trees and stared up at the dull sky. The moon was abnormally large and
it bathed the earth with its luminous glow.

Suddenly, a bolt of lightning tore across the sky and a peal of thunder followed. The rain started to pour down
and the wind sighed and trashed in the tree tops. I ran for shelter, not knowing where I was heading to until I
saw a wooden house. It stood in the middle of the graveyard, looking desolate and sterile, full of grief and
wretchedness.

Without thinking, I ran straight into the house and tried to clean myself dry.

"What are you doing here?", a deep bass voice hollered down at me.

I looked up and saw a huge man with a face that looked swollen with anger. He was shabbily dressed and
was holding a huge chopper in one hand.

I could feel a chill running swiftly down my back, causing the nape of my neck to tingle and a haunting haze of
fear started to surround me.

The large figure threw a frightening look at me and went to a table with a hound tied down to it. The man swung
his muscular arm backwards, and down onto the powerless creature. An agonising wail issued from the hound
before it was thrown bodily aside.

I looked up at the man in terror, only to see him smiling enigmatically to himself. I experienced a nasty feeling of
weakness, and the room tilted and swirled before my eyes. After one last glance at the hound dripping with blood,
I felt the sudden pain surging from my neck and a liquid-like substance dribbling down my back. My body became
numb and I fell to the ground, lying unconcious...

I AM AWESOME.



Now that's what I call motivating oneself.

Es†efanía.   惠     says:
*hai
*im very sad yixuan
. LYX says:
*lol . stop calling my name
*sound so wrong
Es†efanía.   惠     says:
*go awayyyy
. LYX says:
*ahhahahaha.

DAMN IT.

I'm not in the best of mood today due to certain issues.
BUT, I have to tolerate.
Give me a few more hours to get over it.
By tomorrow morning, I'll be worrying more than getting pissed.
GREAT. Now I wonder if that's good or bad.
Things always become worse probably due to the fact that

I'M ALWAYS LIKE THIS :/

Can someone please help me?
I'm turning into an emo freak.
I hate this.

"We all wear a mask to hide our real selves. It's only when we are able to trust someone completely, when we will remove that mask. It is difficult to find that 'someone', however, many of us have found at least one to confide in.
I don't know if that is the true self of you that I have been communicating with. There might be more to you than I think there is. Time will reveal your true colours. It is then will I judge you for who you are, and see if I accept that true you or push you away.
Nonetheless, be brave. Face yourself. Step out and face everybody with that real you, and see for yourself if you are that great after all. Then only can anyone entirely place their trust in you."

P.S. I really need to study. I really need to study. I really need to study. I really need to study. I really need to study. I really need to study. I really need to study. I really need to study. I really need to study. I really need to study. I really need to study. I really need to study. I really need to study. I really need to study. I really need to study. I really need to study. I really need to study. I really need to study. I really need to study. I really need to study. I really need to study.

Today, I realised that I suck at using my newly bought Canmake Tokyo liquid eyeliner. FML.

Okay, not really worth FML-ing for, but you know, IDC.



Susu-desu, can you teach me how you did it so well??

What an unaccomplished weekend.

Oh well, I hope I rested enough.
Today, I went for my dental appointment, then to the gym with LYX.
Ran and cycled for about 1 hr, then chilled at her place.

I need to sleep soon.
TATA

WHEEEEEEEEEE
I am so gonna go running! Soon. HAHAHAHA

Today, my parents drove me to Queensway to get shoes. Adidas. (L) I'm not sure if I'll regret buying those, but I had thought of another purpose for them so hopefully they don't go to waste. HAH.

Yesterday, I met hunnybunny at Paragon to do our brows at The Make Up Store. Still in the process of getting used to it. (Qying drew eyeliner for me ^^)We headed down to Novena to look at the Cotton On sales there as Alfi was working there. Much to our dismay, we didn't get anything except for a large milk tea from MOS Burger on the way back to town. Did a little more shopping here and there and I left to my aunt's while qying went to look for her sister. The two of us ended up shopping online when we got home and I bought something XD

Friday, was the meeting with SMs to celebrate the birthdays of Yi Hong and Woei Jiun. It's been quite a while since we've met up. Hehs. We had a simple dinner at a little restaurant specialising in Fish n' Chips, and then we went to chill at Clarke Quay. This really friendly foreign couple ran over and sang them a birthday song in french. (Y)

today, i literally forced myself out of bed and dragged my feet to school.
missed the damn bus because when i was about to change buses, it left without me.
hence, i was late for the consultation.
could tell he was pissed, but i've decided to do a good job for the assignment.
i'll do it tomorrow when i wake up.

kinda displeased with a few things earlier.
though i have come to terms with things, its still hard to accept.
just a couple more years with a little patience and tolerance, i'll be able to escape from it all and create a life of my own.

for this, i have to strive and work hard.
this will be my motivation.

my really late list of new year resolutions:
-work hard, less procrastination.
-sleep earlier.
-pull up my grades.
-have more fun.
-be more outgoing.
-learn to enjoy each and every process.

and this is it. bonne nuit, i shall retreat to my chambers..

yes yes, that's what i'm hoping for.
i shall wake up and look into the mirror and say "TODAY WILL BE A GOOD DAY" to my reflection every single day.


yesterday, i went to sentosa for OTC gathering.
haha. pretty weird cause we didn't really mix around, but rather bonded with our own groups.
LOGGERS OWN LAH.
captain's ball was pretty fun. (against proggers, hehs)
then fooled around and went to LJS for dinner.
didn't have a very good start of the day, hence it wasn't half as enjoyable as it should've been.

oh well, i'm glad i can stay home today to relax a little and catch up on assignments.
that's about it.

TATA~

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